Photo’ Are in…Beautiful!

I received my photo’s today. I got two back and two will be sent next week. They are so breath taking a so beautiful. When I looked at it, he look so much like daddy and Elaina.Wow! I cried my little tears. I couldn’t cry too much because I had my two teenagers here. I can’t do anything lately.I want to mourn my baby boy but it seems I got all the tears out . I know I have my good days and my bad days.I can’t seem to get him out of head. All I can see is Robbie laying on his duckie blanket on his side with such beauty and grace. I wish I can hold him. I crave his love and his smell.I just want him home with me and daddy and his sisblings.

I’m not sure on having more if I’m feeling so scared and worried and sad. I just want Robbie back in my arms Alive!!!!

Angry a lot lately. Happy one minute and sad the next. I’m pmsing and I’m eating everything in site!lol I gained back the weight. I was smaller . It seems that food is my emotional healer.That’s not really good thing to count but it helps for the moment.