Whatta blah day! Raining out for the second time.I hate rain. It’s so depressing.

Went to the casnio Saturday night. Had a blast! Friends from are bevament group came with friends. Jeff’s former boss and friends were there. The music was great and friends too! I definitly needed it. I help me smile and be “Happy” for a change.

Thinking of Robbie off and on the last two days. I’m visioning his face and how I miss him so much.God, I hope this gets beeter in time. My heart pains so bad!I want him home. His clothes still in his closet and his dresser drawers. It kills me to take his stuff out right now. I have to put Elaina’s clothes in there soon.I know in due time ,when I’m ready. Give it another month.I know putting his clothes away is not a sign that he is put away for good. I’m”Perserving” his memory.I read that in a Grief book awhile back. I’ve been easing off the books for a bit. I find I get so consumed that it makes me worse mess.

Trying to study my drivers book soon. I need some direstion. I truly think if I do this , it will a big obstacle in my life to overcome. I really need  it.

Just wanted to wrie to say I miss you Robbie, if you hear me out there,”I love you”.

xoxoox